1.This life
作詞：K
作曲：Pay money To my Pain
I know It's been a while what happened to you？
In our memory we're still hanging out
strolling up and down 18th street
go to the liquor store to buy some beers
I don't remember, when was the last time
you said you couldn't live this life no more
at that moment I said life no it's not so bad
then you say yeah but sometimes I want to quit
people live their life
for what they believe
even if we have some reason to let it slide
sometimes life is not fair
I know that brings you down
why don't we live this life more simple just like you said
It's not the end
not even the beginning yeah
you keep it all inside bottled up
you never speak your mind open up
If you just let me in when you're falling apart
Just call me anytime I'll be there for you
I don't remember, when was the last time
you said you couldn't live this life no more
at that moment I said life no it's not so bad
then you say yeah but sometimes I want to quit
people live their life
for what they believe
even if we have some reason to let it slide
sometimes life is not fair
I know that brings you down
why don't we live this life more simple just like you said
It's not the end
not even the beginning
I wonder if I'll try to change to feel the world
Am I close to you？
close to you
I know It's been a while what happened to you？
In our memory we're still hanging out
strolling up and down 18th street
but now you're gone, I want you back
people live their life
for what they believe
even if we have some reason to let it slide
sometimes life is not fair
I know that brings you down
why don't we live this life more simple just like you said
It's not the end
not even the beginning
I wonder if I'll try to change to feel the world
Am I close to you？
close to you
close to you
2.Weight of my pride
作詞：K
作曲：Pay money To my Pain
Rain's falling down and just darkens the ground
A sound that I've heard before but I'm not sure
You keep me away from the place where you've been
but now I remember why you stay away from there
When you're falling to the ground
what do you see？
your pride is going down with reality
you may try to stand up
but you'll realize your dreams are gone
the weight of my pride
do I really need that？
the weight of my pride
do I really need that？
you say we've talked before, I don't remember that
The weight of my pride has destroyed me again
But tell me how does it feel when you tell a lie
So tell me who's insane is it me or is it you？
When you're falling to the ground
what do you see？
your pride is going down with reality
you may try to stand up
But you'll realize your dreams are gone
I know maybe I'm breaking down
but It's real man, this is another part of me
forget that, everything you want me to say
just leave me alone don't trust me for now
you say I'm crazy but you're already fucked up
face up to yourself but you can't cuz you're a liar
only thing you do is to run away from your truth
big mouth, get your ass out of my town bitch
Rain's falling down and just darkens the ground
A sound that I've heard before but I'm not sure
You keep me away from the place where you've been
I tride to remember the place
Is that in my mind？
When you're falling to the ground
what do you see？
your pride is going down with reality
you may try to stand up
But you'll realize your dreams are gone
There is something that I miss in my life
There's nothing left to save that's inside of me
I might try to understand
Then I'll figure out my dreams are here
3.Drive
作詞：K
作曲：Pay money To my Pain
I drive as fast as I can
to escape from everything I got
I'm not the one who saves your life
so I ditch everyone I know
How many times I've tried to do this
I know I need to be stronger
but It's something I never let go
I'm stuck inside of something I've raised
I think I'm crazy down with the kingdom
liberation from my illness
someday I'll be fine I believe
you sneak into my heart
and you steal my jewel from me
and I feel the grip of fear
So I drive to make things clear
I'm driving faster to see the sun rise
I must hurry before it's too late
It's my last hope don't take it away
The time is running out for me now
When it's time to feel this empty
I always take the chance to run away
like everybody does
like everybody does
From the first light of dawn
I feel much better
I carry too much
time to let it go
I don't need that jewel anymore
cuz I found myself deep inside of me
I drive as fast as I can
to escape from everything I got
I'm not the one who saves your life
so I ditch everyone I know
I tried to run away
I'm driving faster to see the sun rise
I must hurry before it's too late
It's my last hope don't take it away
The time is running out for me now
When it's time to feel this empty
I always take the chance to run away
like everybody does
like everybody does
From the first light of dawn
I feel much better
I carry too much
time to let it go
I don't need that jewel anymore
cuz I found myself deep inside of me
4.Relive
作詞：K
作曲：Pay money To my Pain
Settle down
you'll be alright
using your head
sometimes bothers you
Now come with us
there's a new world
relive your mind
trust your heartbeat
Rise up now
(so you stand up to get back your soul)
with your will
(split the world they have then you go)
break your self
Now wake up from your dream
(now)
your eyes
still got the light
now you wake up
to live your life
you're the only one
who can change the world
It's not so hard
so you stand up
to get back your soul
split the world they have
make it all mine
(I'll take it)
that day
something
inside of me
is lost
that day
that day I was dead
that day
something
inside of me
is lost
that day
that day I was dead
your eyes
still got the light
now you wake up
to live your life
Settle down
you'll be alright
using your head
sometimes bothers you
Now come with us
there's a new world
relive your mind
trust your heartbeat
5.Deprogrammer
作詞：K
作曲：Pay money To my Pain
Tears fall in my heart
as the rainfall hits my skin
It's not too far, the worst kinda pain
who ever knows how the feeling goes away
My tears fall on the roof
They are flowing from the wound
It doesn't heal anymore
no matter how I try, so hard
please erase my wreck
I can't control
please erase my wreck
I can't control
please erase my wreck
I can't control
please erase my wreck
Just take it away
In the solitude of the silent sand
deep inside the truth shows up
and I walk alone, darkness come take me
God doesn't throw the dice
The choice is in my hand
I lay down and look up into space
I can't think anything cuz my mind is not so clear
escape from this negative article
It doesn't make me feel any good
deprogrammer please erase my wreck
I can't control myself anymore
please erase my wreck
I can't control
please erase my wreck
I can't control
please erase my wreck
I can't control
please erase my wreck
Just take it away
In the solitude of the silent sand
deep inside the truth shows up
and I walk alone, darkness come take me
God doesn't throw the dice
The choice is in my hand
deprogrammer please erase my wreck
I can't control myself anymore
deprogrammer please erase my wreck
I can't control myself anymore
I will revert to the way it was
I dread the grave, come take control of me
In the solitude of the silent sand
deep inside the truth shows up
and I walk alone, darkness come take me
God doesn't throw the dice
The choice is in my hand
please erase my wreck
I can't control
please erase my wreck
I can't control
please erase my wreck
I can't control
please erase my wreck
Just take it away
6.13 monsters
作詞：K
作曲：Pay money To my Pain
I scream out my anger again
spit everything that I hate
in your eyes I can see
what are you hiding what are you trying to say
stop, It makes me fucking sick
I'm out, you're lying, mocking me
I'm pissed and fuck your theory
this is retarded I'm not the only one
the darkness surrounds me
takes my everything away
and I feel nothing
(and I feel nothing)
In order to see the light
sometimes I have to risk the dark
I know but I can't
(I know but I can't do it now)
When the light appears and shines for me
I'll change, another face shows up
Do you see？ the world is changing
I am the monster
you just came out from me
revenge, attack you, you better run
It's late the monsters are on the way
The gate is open for you
but nobody know now, where does the gate lead me
the darkness surrounds me
takes my everything away
and I feel nothing
(and I feel nothing)
In order to see the light
sometimes I have to risk the dark
I know but I can't
(I know but I can't do it now)
life, work, money, hope, envy, gossip,
mock, untrue, surface, lie, cry, death
and these are created by you
life, work, money, hope, envy, gossip,
mock, untrue, surface, lie, cry, death
life, work, money, hope, envy, gossip,
mock, untrue, surface, lie, cry, death
and these are created by you
life, work, money, hope, envy, gossip,
mock, untrue, surface, lie, cry, death
the darkness surrounds me
takes my everything away
and I feel nothing
(and I feel nothing)
In order to see the light
sometimes I have to risk the dark
I know but I can't
(I know but I can't do it now)
Take my everything away
I'll take it back
no matter how hard you try
I feel desperate tonight
I'll stand again yeah I'll fly to the sky
Take my everything away
I'll take it back
no matter how hard you try
I feel desperate tonight
13 monsters are mine
life, work, money, hope, envy, gossip,
mock, untrue, surface, lie, cry, death
and these are created by you
7.Atheist
作詞：K
作曲：Pay money To my Pain
Inside my mind I find my downside
always start to hurt somebody else
I give up, this feeling never goes away
without hope, It means nothing to me
I just wanna be free from your hand
This is my life
don't decide, I'll make my choice
someday I'll reach the sky
Now I know I won't fall again
God gave burdens, also shoulders
then tell me why the people kill themselves
release me from your upper hand
you show yourself just only one time, after I die
I just wanna be free from this rage
where's that come from？
live in lies, I can't stand no more
There's no way to disappear
so I cry as hard as I can
I will fight for freedom I want
I will fight for freedom that's all I want
Inside my mind I find my downside
always start to hurt somebody else
I give up, this feeling never goes away
without hope, It means nothing to me
I just wanna be free from your hand
This is my life
don't decide, I'll make my choice
someday I'll reach the sky
Now I know I won't fall again
This war will last forever
temptation is not a solution
I'm free from any desire
take my soul if you can from me
8.Wallow in self pity
作詞：K
作曲：Pay money To my Pain
you know a good liar will never let you know
that he knows you're full of shit
that he knows you're full of shit
I'm sick of hearing that you say fuck this world
what are you trying to say？
what are you trying to say to the world？
I will feed you anything you want
in your heaven how does it feel？
Is there anything that I can do？
freedom from your fucking suffering
How does it feel？ Tell me how does it feel？
I wanna hear from you after you've drowned
I'll tell you what the problem is about you
wallow in self pity
wallow in self pity
you're mindless like that fucking empty box
There's nothing inside
There's nothing inside of the box
I'm going too far away
no one can follow me, my shadow waits to die
I'm the only one in the rain
It seems never clear
I will give you what ever you want
This is the medicine got no prescription
but remember this'll be a risk to you
someday you may find yourself
in your misery you dread the fire and death
in your misery you dread the fire and death
crack head, pot head you're loosing your mind
crack head, pot head you're loosing your mind
crack head, pot head you're loosing your mind
crack head, pot head you're wasting your time
crack head, pot head you're loosing your mind
crack head, pot head you're loosing your mind
crack head, pot head you're loosing your mind
I'm feeling my life slipping away
I'm going too far away
no one can follow me, my shadow waits to die
I'm the only one in the rain
It seems never clear when everything is dead around here
I'm going too far away
no one can follow me, my shadow waits to die
I'm the only one in the rain
(It) seems never clear
9.Hourglass
作詞：K
作曲：Pay money To my Pain
people walking through me
in this frosty town
traffic noise makes me feel calm
this moonless night
a kiss of loveless feeling
the ice is melting now like your heart
hourglass keeps telling me the time
and I have to change the flow
to cross over
I'd never lie to you
but you disappeared
I am so alone
Do you believe that this was meant to be？
I never trust my fate
everything fades away in the end
people staring through me
in this frosty town
Empty streets and no one's home
this moonless night
in the silence
hourglasses never flow
everyday I die
and every night I'm born
can you help me now？
everything fades away
in the end
I'm the one with no name
no one knows about me
you can trust me I'm ok
I just wanna be alone
I don't feel anymore I might forget my name
Can you tell me who I am？
everyday I lie
for protection from enemies
but I realized
I'm the enemy
everyday I die
and every night I'm born
like the hourglass
It never flows
It never flows
eternally
no, It never flows
eternally
10.In the blink of an eye
作詞：K
作曲：Pay money To my Pain
I find myself inside of you
It's very sweet to me
I never knew this kind feeling
I cried unconsciously
If we stay together
I will make you smile
and when you're feeling lonely
please remember me
please remember me
When you feel lonely
I will make you smile
you are not alone
you are not alone
cuz I am here for you
when I close my eyes I see you smile
It's an ordinary day
and I touch your face so gently
I'm afraid that you might break
If you say you'll leave me
I will try to smile
Does that mean you don't like me
I'm so afraid you're gone
I'm afraid you're gone for good
When you feel lonely
I will make you smile
you are not alone
you are not alone
cuz I am here for you
I'm afraid you're gone for good
11.Gift
作詞：K
作曲：Pay money To my Pain
I want wings to fly
then I can glide all over the world
dreaming to be free
that is all I wanna be
I imagine if the world has another side
there's no war and no power game
I use this gift you left
to see the world exists
I awake in my room
It was a dream of fantasy
so I try to figure out
Does the world exist？
you came here and left something to me
I've been holding it inside, that is all I've got
but things changed I can't hold this any more
What you called「a gift」
I'll let it go
you gave me something that I never knew
I've been growing up with it, for all my life
but things never changed so I let this go
What you called「a gift」
maybe I'll let it go
I will accept my life
even if it's gone someday
who knows I've got this gift
How long have I been looking for？
I want wings to fly
then I can glide all over the world
I'm dreaming to be free
to know this life's meaning
you came here and left something to me
I've been holding it inside, that is all I've got
but things changed I can't hold this any more
What you called「a gift」
I'll let it go
you gave me something that I never knew
I've been growing up with it, for all my life
but things never changed so I let this go
What you called「a gift」
maybe I'll let it go
you came here and left something to me
I've been holding it inside, that is all I've got
you came here and left something to me
I've been holding it inside, that is all I've got
you came here and left something to me
I've been holding it inside, that is all I've got
but things changed I can't hold this any more
What you called「a gift」
I'll let it go
you gave me something that I never knew
I've been growing up with it, for all my life
but things never changed so I let this go
What you called「a gift」
maybe I'll let it go
12.Pictures
作詞：K
作曲：Pay money To my Pain
I feel my heart is getting lost
being myself is painful
someone says you don't have a chance
to restart the life that you never had
Negative emotions attacked me
especially like this lonely night
silence is eating my brain
shutting me down and I'm stuck again
years spent drawing and painting me colors
on myself
once I saw my future
but now I need to wipe off my eyes
Tell me when you have lost your way
what would you do to see the light again
a picture is the only way to member
that your past is true
When you get trapped in your life
when you are up against the wall
what would you give to be free
just like how we were before
Endless pain I've had enough
If only just for now can't I have it all
but in the end it defeated me
why do I let my past laugh at me
I've been dreaming and I've been drawing
what I saw
but time waits up for no one
that's why we are living in a picture
Tell me when you have lost your way
what would you do to see the light again
a picture is the only way to member
that your past is true
When you get trapped in your life
when you are up against the wall
what would you give to be free
just like how we were before
I feel my heart is getting lost
being myself is painful
someone says you don't have a chance
to restart the life that you never had
Negative emotions attacked me
I can feel my hope slipping away
I ask myself
Will you stay with me
Tell me when you have lost your way
what would you do to see the light again
a picture is the only way to member
that your past is true
When you get trapped in your life
when you are up against the wall
what would you give to be free
just like how we were before
Tell me when you have lost your way
what would you do to see the light again
a picture is the only way to member
that your past is true
When you get trapped in your life
just wanna run but you don't have the strength
what would you give to be free
just like how we were before
just like how we were before
one more time
13.dilemma
作詞：K
作曲：Pay money To my Pain
look up to the sky
there is a star that guides me
I don't know where I'm going to
but I feel good
listen to the voice
in the air I'm part of it
Forgive me for everything I've done
I'm so alone
walking down the street now
Then I open my eyes to see you
I'm holding your hand never let this go
So we walk again
Stars are leading me the way
It's never gonna leave my way
Trust me I feel free tonight
we can go anywhere
sometimes I sit across from you
That's the moment I'm in the air
This song waits for you to cross over
to me
Do you see the stars shine for you
It tells you which way is right
forget your regret just for now
we don't need that
walking down on the street now
Then I open my eyes to see you
I'm holding your hand never let this go
So we walk again
Stars are leading me the way
It's never gonna leave my way
Trust me I feel free tonight
we can go anywhere
sometimes I sit across from you
That's the moment I'm in the air
This song waits for you to cross over
to me
sometimes I sit across from you
That's the moment I'm in the air
This song waits for you to cross over
to me
Do you see the stars shine for you
It tells you which way is right
forget your regret just for now
we don't need that
Do you feel the sun shine for you
The moon light's sleeping now
just close my eyes and try to feel
The world exist
Do you see the stars shine for you
It tells you which way is right
forget your regret just for now
we don't need that
Do you feel the sun shine for you
The moon light's sleeping now
just close my eyes and try to feel
The world exist
Do you see the stars shine for you
It tells you which way is right
forget your regret just for now
we don't need that
Do you feel the sun shine for you
The moon light's sleeping now
just close my eyes and try to feel
The world exist
Do you see the stars shine for you
It tells you which way is right
forget your regret just for now
we don't need that
Do you see the stars shine for you
It tells you which way is right
forget your regret just for now
we don't need that
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